I have been really inactive as of this year, so I wanted to at least end this year with writing something productive. So here's my last post of 2016, just a short message that I want to share with people on how to treat others.

One of the reasons I was inactive in this year was due to me trying to deal with people that constantly tried to bring me down, whether intentionally or unintentionally. I was depressed and hopeless in most time of the year, but it made me become more mature. I learned that how you treat people, reflects how you want to be treated by others. I just wish that people realise this.

Respect, trust and love need to be earned. You don't get it simply just like that. If you want people to respect, trust and love you, you need do the same: towards yourself and others. You don't demand to be respected when you yourself don't respect other people's feelings. There are a lot of people around me that complains that others do not respect them, but in the first place, were they even respectful? 

I am not saying I am the nicest person, I sometimes act like sh*t too. One thing that I'm sure of is that, whenever people start to act differently to me, instead of demanding what they want from me, I try to reflect back on my actions. If I'm wrong, I'll apologise. If I'm not at fault, well, normally I just stay silent. I'm not the type to confront people when I have things to say; I just let go. But recently, things are getting out of hand. The people around me, my own friends that I've put my trust in, start to become different. Fights happen, cold treatments take place instead of friendliness. 

I'm tired of handling people that constantly demands what I want from them, and people that are just plainly hypocrite. I've vowed to treat myself better, to only keep positive vibes, so when people around me started to act negatively, I have no choice but to stand up and leave. I've had enough of people leaving me, so I'm not afraid to lose anything. How you treat me reflects how you want to be treated; so if you treat me like bullsh*t, that's when I stop caring. 

It's easy. Treat people the way you want to be treated. Stop hurting others' feelings, stop demanding when you won't even compromise, stop saying things that you don't actually mean. Even the people that you hate have feelings. Everyone have feelings. Every human makes mistakes. Reflect and be a better person.



Till next time ♡ Love, Maira

It's my birthday! I finally turned a year older, which means that I have to increase the level of my maturity. Turning 19 means a lot to me. This will be the last year I'll be regarded as a teen, next year will be a total new experience for me in becoming an adult. I'm not ready to become an adult, but then again, who is? Becoming adult means getting more responsibilities and more challenges. I may not be ready, but I'm excited to see what kind of person I'm going to become. 

First of all, I'd like to say multiple bazillion thank you(s) and gratitude to both my parents, Shamsul Bahrain and Noraini for giving birth and taking care of me since I was born till this very day. I know that I've been a quite problematic case of a daughter (compared to my other sisters), and it means everything that you both were always there to support me. I don't ever want to lose you and I promise that I will grow up to be a daughter that you can be proud of! I'll study hard and get a good job so that when you're both are old, I can take care and give you both a good and relaxing life. I love you so much, Umi and Abi ♡

To my sisters, Khadijah and Sumayyah, you both are the best sisters and girlfriends that I could ever have. I know that all these years you both had to deal with my temper (sudden screams, banging the door close, jelingan maut, etc.), I'm very thankful that you both still love me despite those happening. Thank you for your beautiful birthday messages, I really did cry after reading them because god, I just miss both of you and Umi Abi a lot. Thank you to my family for calling me this morning to sing me a happy birthday song. I have never felt so loved before ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

To all my girlfriends (and some guy friends, since I can basically count you all), the ones from Kulim, Shah Alam and Terengganu, my current beloved housemates, my gang in TTDI, my lovely soul sister, Hyeo, and other girlfriends on my social networks, thank you for all your birthday wishes. I may not say this a lot but I love and appreciate all of your existence. Thank you for dealing and tolerating with this crazy person, thank you so much for being my friend!

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After being given 19 years of time to breathe, here's 19 things that I've learned:
  1. Everything happens for a reason. Don't regret any choices you've made.
  2. No matter who you get to know or be friends with, no matter what happens, your family comes first.
  3. Your parents may not show it a lot, but they love you as much as they love your other siblings. (I should stop being jealous with the attention that my sisters get because my parents showered me with love too)
  4. You can't make everyone like you. They deserve to dislike you and you should be okay with it.
  5. It's okay to listen to people's opinion, but they should not define who you are.
  6. Learn to accept your mistakes and flaws. You'll become a better person after that.
  7. You don't need no boy to be happy. Your girlfriends are enough.
  8. Never hate on anyone. Learn to accept, respect and tolerate with people, and people will do the same for you.
  9. It's okay to feel tired. Every effort counts, none of them are useless. The efforts will get you to your dreams or something better, inshaaAllah.
  10. Be honest and truthful, lying gets you to nowhere.
  11. If someone can't accept you for who you are, or constantly makes you feel like sh*t, it's okay to leave them. They don't deserve you.
  12. Every human being is born beautiful. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. Someone thinking you're not beautiful doesn't mean you are, they just don't see it. Somewhere along the way you will find people who think you are the most beautiful being.
  13. Loving someone far and unreachable is not wrong. It's still love.
  14. Take care of people's feelings, but take care of your own feelings more. You deserve to be loved.
  15. Getting through a stressful day is an achievement. Don't downgrade yourself, you did well. Sometimes you need to pat your own back and tell yourself you did well.
  16. It's okay to breakdown and cry. It doesn't mean you're weak. Cry and get back up, show the world that you are stronger than that.
  17. Don't hurt yourself for others, put priority on yourself. You are worth all your attention. Care for yourself more than others, but don't be selfish.
  18. Be kind and do good to others. Life doesn't revolve around yourself, at times you need people to help you survive in this world.
  19. As a Muslim, surviving life is important, but don't forget to perform your prayers and ibaadah and always remember Allah the Almighty in everything. 

I did learn more than this, of course. But these are the things that I want to constantly remind myself with so that I can become a better person.

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So last night was TESL Night 2016 for my university. I went there without any expectation (I just aimed to eat and go back home) and I did have quite some complaints regarding the management of the event. But surprisingly, the flow of the event went smoothly and I had a great time last night (though I didn't manage to eat the sambal sotong). I was forced (a little) to join the fashion show and despite my nervousness in catwalking infront of almost 200 people, I think I did a rather great job. Didn't get to be recrowned as the Queen, but oh well, I got something better than that.

Some of the performance were alright, some of them a real da bomb. Almost at the end of the event, the lecturers were called to give some advice to us, when one of my favourite lecturer, Madam Sally suddenly announced that me and Tiyah, a classmate of mine did something terribly wrong. We were called to the front of the stage, and I was pretty scared and confused as to what I did wrong. Several moments passed before Madam Sally suddenly sang happy birthday to both me and Tiyah, before two of my best friends, Epa and Mehi came front with a cake and candles to us. I couldn't think of anything else and broke into tears along with Tiyah. It was a very touching moment for me, since I didn't expect anything for my birthday. I'm so thankful to the ones that participated in making the birthday surprise, you guys are the most awesome! I love you guys!

"Once a family, always a family". To all TESLians of UniSZA for this batch, thank you for everything. I hope our friendship will last for as long as they could be. All the best for your teaching practicum next year!

Thank you everyone for giving me an amazing birthday 



Till next time ♡ Love, Maira