Monday, December 21, 2015

A Night's Muse

If you genuinely
love someone
don't ever decorate
their eyes with tears
their ears with lies
and their heart
with a wound.

Have you ever felt like you're worthless? Like, there is this one time where everyone refuses to sit with you or talk to you, and then they act like nothing happened? I have always been the one being left out. The third wheel. The loner. The one which people think is not worth their time to spend with.

And that is the reason why I'm always scared to become close to someone. Because I tend to become clingy, and when I love someone, I'll love them wholeheartedly. I'll do anything for your sake. But sometimes, I wonder if you felt the same way. Am I worth your time? Do I make you happy? Or I'm just someone who you'll be with when you have no one else around you? Am I just a second option?

I hate the nights when I'm sensitive, because when I get sensitive, I cry over really small matters. I don't want to annoy you with that, so I stayed away. I stayed away to not let any hard feelings to happen. But that also makes me sad. Because you never notice it. You never did.

I'm not angry, or upset. No. I just need to let out this feelings.

When it's time for you to cry, trust me, I'll be there for you.

Because you're important to me.

P.S; To Hyeo, if you're reading this (nothing above is related to you), I just want you to know that I miss you and I love you and thank you for always being there for me through my ups and downs and for always comforting me. Thank you for never judging me and always telling me to love myself more.

Till next time ♡ Love, Humaira


  1. are you hanie's lil sis? lol I'm from aff too haha mu usernme is violetic ! nice to meet ya!

  2. Eh? No haha, I'm not biologically related to Hanie. We're just close friends online, and I call her "unnie". That's it ^^

    Thanks for dropping by anyway!